I woke up this morning, well let’s face it, I did not really sleep much. In fact, I have not been able to sleep for the better part of a week. Anyhow, I woke up, made my coffee, and started a load of laundry...hold that thought, I just realized that I need to go switch it over...if I do not do it now, it will not get done. Be right back.
Okay, I am back, laundry has been switched over, folded, put away and I have made another cup of coffee. For the last little while, I have felt restless, unable to sleep and even kind of grumpy. I started questioning whether we should have made the trip across country, and while I would not change it, (we absolutely love it here), I might have done it differently. I never expected the move to be easy, and it has not been, but this morning I was flipping through Facebook after reading…since the move I have renewed my passion for reading and have made a goal to read 100 books this year. Huge goal, but I read 4 books and I am on my 5th book for this month, but I am getting off track.
My brain has felt the inability to focus and struggled to stay on track when needing to. I have felt disorganized and like life was simply HARD! Well, like I said I was flipping through Facebook and it hit me… I need to create the life I WANT, not the life I think I should have. No one is going to beat me over the head until I create it…okay maybe Sarah will, but she knows I need it from time to time. The combination of seeing people authentically living their best life and the book I am currently reading (and I am only on chapter 4), made me realize that I need to live my life my way, on my terms. It took a fiction book, not a self-help, or personal growth type book, but a fiction novel to wake me up…probably better than cup of coffee could, because I am excited. By the way, drop what you are doing and order, The Awakening, by Nora Roberts. Sorry, to all my Christian friends who may see this as a book that is opening doors to places, I don’t want opened, but its just a story and it’s a good one so far…I can rescind the recommendation if I decide its not a good idea. Anyway Breen, the girl in the book gets woken up to the misery in her own life, she is essentially hiding herself by wearing unappealing clothing, taming her brilliant red hair with mousy brown hair dye, to be safe and unnoticeable…something her mother molded her into, I might add. So, now she is embracing who she is and rocking the brilliant red hair. You go girl!
This morning…I wake up, excited and ready to do just this…I created a Pinterest board called My Future Closet and one for our home…which we are renting, and I love. Today, I decided that I need to live my best life…create my best life and not conform myself to being something I really do not want to be. Something I have done for years. Divorce is not easy, and it makes us question our very person, who we are versus perhaps who we should be. Now this does not mean that I am going to start hitting up the clubs, go out drinking every night and wear clothes that show off every part of my body…not happening. This is not who I am, and it never was who I was. I have always been more on the conservative side, the planner, the think before I do…for the most part. I never questioned my choices, my decisions, I just decided on something and went with it. Since my divorce, I have been molding myself into someone that is not me. Go to school, get the career you think you should have, do this, be that and I literally question every decision I made. So, when I made the decision to go to Virginia, I did not hesitate, I did not create a thorough, well thought out plan, I just went with it. Not comfortable, and I did it even though every odd was hitting me from every side. The critical voices, the car dying and being unrepairable the day before, and the list goes on…and I needed to do it before I changed my mind, because I know me, and even I felt it was God led (and I believe wholeheartedly it is), I would think my way right out of going! So, I went.
This post could be super long, the bottom line is that as of today, I am making some more major changes in life and I am excited. I am going to build my best life…if you follow my blogs, I am going to be spending more time working on them and one goal I am looking at is my home which is a blank slate…literally. So, look for some blogs on home decorating, organization tips, tricks, and ideas as I take my home from empty to cozy, comfortable and uniquely us and I am going to show you how to create your own best life, your own beautiful and uniquely you home…So, be watching for it, as I work out the kinks, the details and business plan to do all that I have planned. I am excited. It is not just about decorating; it is about being absolutely 100% you. Authentically and courageously you. The you God intended you to be, the you that deep down inside is the you that you know you are supposed to be. I don’t care if that is a run on sentence, it needs to be said, and I said it the way it needed to be said! So again, Stay Tuned! Your best life is coming…
